The World As I See It

I hurt you here. So you’ll stay inside. So you’ll stay safe. Because I know you can’t handle it out there. So I keep you home, and safe.

That is the lesson I was confronted with recently. I turned into a parking lot and my brain loaded up. I could feel my entire nervous system get hit with lighting. The part of my brain that handles fear; was screaming at me to leave.

“are you ready?” He said to me.

“For what? we are good? its been a good day. Even you can admit that” I said trying to be afraid. I have felt like this before. This type of terror.

“Are you ready?” he asked me again. Then he gave me time back as a guided missile strike hit me in the heart, brain, and essence at at once. It was truly the most brilliant mental assault I have ever had the joy of enduring. As the world shook around me. And every ounce of good will in the universe vanished.

“I fucking told you. Not to leave the house, didn’t I?” he chuckled at me.

“Dumb fuck” then he left me in silence.

I hurt you here so you’ll be too scared to leave. I hurt you here; so you are safe; and its easier here in the mirror.